Yesterday over dinner we (the BF and I) some how got on the topic of children. I probably started it, LOL, but I can't remember. He had a nerd moment and I told him he had to let our kids decide for themselves who they were and what they were interested in. He referred to said child as a her. Later on when I asked I asked him about it he said he really doesn't have a preference. I think he does. He wants himself a little daddy's girl. Me being me, I couldn't let the subject alone. I asked him to describe his kids to me. He was sort of hesitant to go there at first. Maybe he didn't really want me to know he had thought about it. I loved the response so much I sort of wanted to document it for later / share it.
He said he always thought he'd have kids that were like each side of his brain. I, of course, wanted him to elaborate. I was not disappointed.

The Son                                                             
scientific minded                                                  
nerdy                                                                      
introvert

The Daughter
creative
free spirited
spiritual


These kids sound a whole lot like the ones I already have. We're going to have an amazing family some day. SOME DAY. Not any time soon. Don't get too excited!                                                                

Every morning...

what goes on while we are asleep?

I had to go and by some of those clips for your sheets.

It's official. We are MOVING!!

After so much back and forth we finally decided the best thing for us to do was to rent an apartment for the time being. We found a steal of a deal at this little place tucked away off of one of the busiest streets in town. It is a serious steal at around $430 a month for a 2 bedroom. Before you start thinking we have put our personal safety aside for such an amazing deal, I can assure you we did our due diligence. We also totally lucked out! Our apartment is one of the first to receive a makeover. Brand new appliances, stone floors in the kitchen and bathroom, new carpet, and ceiling fans. Our apartment also happens to sit beneath a big ol' shade tree. Less AC cost in the sweltering Memphis summer, and since we happen to be upstairs, less heating costs in the winter. Thank God heat rises!

I have been spending every bit of extra time combing the thrift shops in town for all the STUFF we need. I kinda hate that I left everything behind when I left the ex, but I have managed to do some amazing shopping for right around $100. I am also BLESSED ~ FORTUNATE ~ LUCKY enough to be being given most of our furniture by my A.J. & RIE. How perfect is that?! We are really cutting expenses which means I can start budgeting and catching up on the bills I have fallen so far behind on. Stay tuned for this broke couples journey. Who want's to pay for our U-haul rental? LOL!

The management is amazing and told us we should feel free to paint as we like and really make it home. I doubt we will go quite that far... maybe if we decide to stay on longer than a year.

I am pretty freakin' excited to be spending the upcoming holidays in our own place. The only downer is not having our sweet Lulu there to share it with us.

Celebrated the BF's sister's birthday last night. Fearlessly rocked a pretty short, tight dress. I really should have taken pictures. We were a good looking group. I'm just sayin'.

My love for his family pretty much grows on a daily basis and I really feel like this is my family. (Someday) I was a little bummed that the kids decided not to join us, but there is always next time.

Favorite moments...again I wish I had taken pics...It is so not like me to not.

His cousin Erica asking me to come and sit next to her. Of course I'm going to anyway because she brought my most favorite people along with her. I love her kids, especially Kaylah. I love a sweet baby.

The BF taking Kaylah out of her car seat while making a comment about keeping her happy and quiet. I couldn't quote him, but it was a very daddy thing to say and not so secretly made me very happy.

The smile on his mom's face while she sliced up the cake. The simplest things make her happy. I love that.

The size of the steak he ordered...39oz. For real! It was the size of his head.

I am so thankful to have the time to just sit, in peace and quiet. To be able to rest and reflect. To actually see that there are still good things happening in my life.

I have a great job with awesome co-workers. I'm working hard and loving it. I'll love it even more when there is a paycheck attached to it.

I have an amazing, supportive boyfriend. He is my rock and refuge from the craziness that surrounds me from day to day. I am so blessed and happy to have him in my life.

I have two awesome kids, and while I don't get to see them any where near as much as I would like to, they bring so much happiness and laughter to my life.

My sweet Lulu is always there, just waiting. Tail wagging and so happy to see me.

I am always surprised by my ability to bounce back from the hard curves life throws my way. I really shouldn't be though. My faith is strong enough to move mountains, I am a daughter of the King.

Really love statement necklaces....

They just don't work on large chested chicks. God know I love my boobs (shout out to my girls), but they can really get in the way sometimes.  #firstworldproblems  #bustygirlproblems

In the words of the boyfriend... " Awww Gosh!!"

Today has been practically perfect. Spent the morning cuddled up to my most handsome honey. Those times always go by way too fast.

BUT.... Today I got to spend the afternoon with another handsome guy.

                                   My son.

I could never even begin to explain how amazing it feels to spend time with him after so long.
I can't even show you how happy I was to be with him because he is way too cool to take pictures with his mom these days.


                                 * Bonus*

I got to see my fur babies. My monsters. My most fabulous girls!! #BernerLuv

I miss my sweet monster girls and it warms my heart seeing how happy they are to see me too.